| ehrrrrrr!!!!!!! |
[Oct. 19th, 2005|09:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crappy | ] |
i dont know what to do latly. i am so tired anymore that i dont want to do anything for about aweek but sleep and wakeup ocasionaly fo a beer and something to eat. and of corse get layed but none of that is likely to happen especialy the latter. but oh how nice it would be. ALL OF OT!!!!
this farmers bullshit is getting on my last nerve. if it werent fo all of my friends there (josh, gavin, ronnie,nick, steph, karah and anyone i forgott, im really tired, i would just say fuck it and get another job but how could i make any better mone and only work 4 days a week. th new computerized ticket shit fucking sucks major ass. it is so horibly designed that it is worse than our regular tickets. if it was more simple and esier to use it wouldnt be so bad and i might actualy like it. i was ancious to use it at first till i seen how bad it is. it was horible tuesday night and it made it worse that it made steph cry. it sucked seeing her be so tore up and not being able to help withouth getting yelled at for no fucking reason. not like i had anytables or anything when they had 5+ at least because our hosts (bosses) fucking suck and have no clue how to seat in sections especialy when a screen right in front of them shows where there is an empty table. FUCK FARMERS.
and the shit about getting up at 5 and driving to bowling green for school and having to come all the way back to work and be in more shit there is all i can take. not to mention the shit going on between me and Ash. i dont mean to seem like i want her to feel guilty or am looking for pitty, thats not it at all. i just dont know what to think. i love her more than anyone i have ever met in my life. and i know that she has not ever had the oportunity to feel that way or anything else for taht matter with anyone else. if she wants to be single then thats fine. though it sucks because i dont. i want her to be happy over anyhting else in this world. if that means eventualy being with someone else other than me then fine. ill deal with it. i dont want her to get hurt either by me or someone else that she may meet. she means the world to me. SERIOUSLY!
The only thing about being single is that i would feel bad "talking" to other girs and still being unsure of me and her getting back together or not anytime in the near future. and the same goes for her. im sure that she feels the same even though she said that she plans on finishing this semester out single. oh well. i guess that i will to because im sure not getting involved with anyone else untill im sure that it is want she wants to be with other people. though she said she thinks it would be nice to test those watters. wich kind of scares me. it probably shoudnt. but i cant help it. the thought of her being with someone else is undescribable. i dont know how to say the way it makes me feel. i accept the fact that shee has that right if it is what she wants and i wont atempt to stop her. but i dont think that i could ever feel the same about her afterwards if we ever got back together. i never could with anyone else that i have seriouly dated. it is just wierd. not knowing how the other person means to them and if they have "been" together if you know what i mean even though i know for a fact that ash is not like that. not at all. which makes me feel alot better about this whole situation. especialy when she said that if she had any friend with benifits that it would be only me. god that made everything so much better.
ive bitched enough already and im tired so im gonna go. |
|
|
| urhhhhhhhhhh !! |
[Sep. 26th, 2005|10:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tommy Lee (tommy Lnd the Ride) | ] |
i hate routiens. it sucks geting up at 530 in the morning going to school and going from their straight to work untill 9 or 10. then talking to ashley for maybey 10 minutes because i have to go to bed to back up by 530 and she has homework. IT SUCKS!!!
I HATE WORK AND SCHOOL!!!!!!
i want to get the fuck out of school and get a new job so that i can get a new civic
i miss ashley because she has to much to do and i do to so we never get to see each other or talk. i love her to death but it seems like were growing apart (wich FUCKING sucks)... |
|
|
| board and brok |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|01:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nickleback | ] |
its been a while since iv been on here but i dont have the net at home so thatts why. not like anyone sees this shit any way.
i moved out of mom and dads and im living with my friends brandon harrell and derrek decker. the house we are renting is my parents house that we moved out of a few years ago but did not sell. its fun but it makes me broke.
my car needs brakes thats $200
my car needs exaughst thats $80-100.
I NEED MONEY
pluys work is sucking majorly. $24 tuesday is horible. that wont cover rent and gas all the way to bowling green 4 days aweek. something better improve or im gonna have to find another way to survive (NOT FARMERS) |
|
|
| please repond.......................or die |
[May. 4th, 2005|11:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | what the fuck ever is on | ] |
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I lovable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 26th, 2005|10:42 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hawthorn hights | ] |
iam bored hungry as fuck and most of all tired of fuckong with this stupid car show presentation. i am basicly done but on thing that will fuck the grade is the woman doing the fliers and brochure is not worth a fuck
i want to spend some fun time with ash. but i dont have much and niether does she and we are both broke. FUCK MONEY!!! i dont like it. I MISS YOU ASHLEY.
Class is boring now because there is nothing to do but help other people finish the shit that they are to stupid and lazy to do themselvs. i want this semester to end....NOW. |
|
|
| been a while |
[Mar. 2nd, 2005|09:59 am] |
its been a whil since i have been able to post. i dont get much free time with acess to the net.
i went to the Carl Casper Auto Show Saturday, ash went with me which made me happy. i didnt think she would weant to go suffer through a long day of car shit she dont like. but since i drove up with brandon and jenna went with him she had a friend to talk to. i entered my car in the stereo competitiom in Ameture Street 1. i hoped to hit in the 140db range acording to what i was told by the guy i bought my stuff from, however i only got a high of 137.8db's. not to bad for a tiny amp and a fucked up box.
the show was nice, cars were cool and some were loud. the drawback to it all was that since i entered my car into the show i could not move it from the building intill the show was over at 11pm louisville time. that sucked ass. once we got tired of sitting around doing nothing we got in brandons car and drove around louisvill for no good reason. we got so lost. went by the same place many times. but it was better than staying in the show building for no reason.
I LOVE YOU ASHLEY CHAUNTEL STONE!!!!!!!!!! and always will. |
|
|
| yeah!! |
[Feb. 24th, 2005|09:30 am] |
its my birthsay yahhhhhhhhhy...
no more 18 barely legal. im now 19. not that it maters or anything. it isnt important until i am 21 so i can go to vegas and buy boos legaly.
got to do class work now maybe moore to come later. as dont let me forget to get those pics on my presentation. ill try to get the sorces... |
|
|
| good to be today |
[Feb. 15th, 2005|10:24 am] |
I'm happy it is no longer lastnight. i dont care for it being V-Day but lastnight was FUCKING INSANE!!
i havent worked so hard the entire time i've worked at farmers. Fuck people for coming there to eat. it must be nice for the servers making huge fucking bank ($180-KB, thanks for the fucking tipout NOT)the work that i did was to fucking much to have only made $25. Fuck that!!! the servers only have their section and i had all 28 fucking tables. so i did more than they did but made less than a 1/4 as they did. its fucking gay being a plater and getting fucked on busy nights. i cant waight till i only serve.
On the subject of V-Day i got ashley a couple roses and a card she didn't want to exchange gifts due to money situations, thats fine with me. its being with eachother that makes me happy not the bullshit thats bought.
I love YOU ASH. |
|
|
| not so bad |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|10:27 am] |
today started off well. i got to class today and got on the internet until i shoud have been doing class work. when i tried to start where i had left off, my book was not up todate, so the last assignment for Excell was to integreate Word documents and i could not do it. so the teacher excused me from class. since i had already completed all of Excell when the rest of the class is just starting Excell. But it isnt like i have anything else to do. so now im wasting time on the internet.
my weekend was fun. Thursday night i went to josh's house after i spent some time with Ash. it was a blast. we were up till about 4 in the mourning. i got sick and puked 4 times in a row after eating some Papa Johns pizza. It always hurts my stomach. I guesse i ate to much.
Friday at work i had the busiest section to serve and it was worse because i was double and tripple seated thatnx to stupid ass fucking KaAnn. she has no idea what the fuck she is doing. she has not been truely trained to be a host. KB so called trained her but was to blinded by her deception and did not teach her anything.
Saturday i can barely remember.
Sunday i got up early and went to Ashley's. I lover her. we were not on good terms in the morning time. we were arfuing about me doing things with my friends and not spending as much time with her as she (or me) would like. but we worked it out and turned it into one of the most amazing days ever (reason(s)excluded).
i was supoded to go to scotts with josh and nick to watch the superbowl but the plans fell through when nick got sick and josh coulnot get ahold of scott. it is kind of a good thing taht it didnt happen though, because if i had went a couple of things wouldnt of been able to happen that made it such an awsome day.
i wouldnt have traded it for the world.
i have toi go to lunch now but to let the entire world know
I LOVE ASHLEY STONE |
|
|
| Finaly |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|10:35 am] |
|
i finaly got a new Email account but now i have to leave for lunch. im starving but dont know where i will go, nothing sounds good anymore. |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
cna0311's journal